I'm making this one a semi-friends-only blog. I post too much crap in here. And most of them, I don't want to be read by you. Yes, you. Hahaha. They are strictly for selected peoplez only. Sowee.

I'm bored. NOT.

I didn't like how my first entry for the year went, and so here I am making another one. I have thought about things already, and although things aren't crystal clear yet, I am beginning to understand some of them already.

One thing I realized is that I've been whining and complaining the entire time. The first day of the year isn't a good time to complain... or rather, it isn't good to complain during the first day of the year. I've gotta slap myself for this. I also feel like I've been dragging people down because of my attitude lately, and I want to say sorry for that.

I am weak, generally. That's the second thing that I have come to understand more. I've known this for a while now, but I only understood how weak I am now. I can easily sway from my goals and ideals. I can also be easily swayed by the influence of others, and that is because I have this need to please people. I feel like I'd be all alone if I begin to impose myself on others and end up displeasing them. And because of this, I always made an effort to put other people's needs and wants above myself. I am on the losing end.

But as the year progressed, I learned to be more independent in the sense of not feeling lonely when I am alone. I learned to be myself more, and I learned gradually that I won't gain anything by always following other people's demands just to please them. Through this, I met new people and gained new friends, and I am really thankful.

Life isn't as smooth-flowing, though. There'd always be bumps ahead. It just so happens that this time, I am faced with a huge boulder that I have yet to get over. With the seemingly abrupt change of path that I took, somehow I knew that there'd be misunderstandings. And I have yet to explain to people who deserve an explanation why I had a "seemingly" sudden change of friends. Well, it's been a while and I haven't explained myself yet. I think that is because I myself was confused... But right now, I think I can finally clear things up.

There are also things that happened along the way, which really tested me in terms of friendship. There were times when what I wanted to believe was contradicting to what I saw. But I came to a conclusion that as long as my friend tells me that there is nothing, I would believe her. :D And if there came a time that it would change, I would still be there to support in whatever may happen.

One thing I would like to learn fully is what Cara mentioned in her blog entry.
"Never take a side in friendships."
"Never be biased with friends. No one should prevent you from being your true self."

I am aware of those things but sometimes, I feel like I still commit those mistakes. I hope I get to learn it more this year.

Since I have been complaining all the time... and I must have been inconveniencing some people with my whining whether they admit it or not ;D, I have decided that I'd try to be I will be stronger not only for myself, but for other people as well. I can't really expound on how, and in what  way I can be stronger right now, but I definitely will be.

I actually have more to say but I'm already beginning to get lost with all my thoughts. Let me just say thank you and sorry to everyone who deserved it. Thank you to Julie, Me-ann, Esfrey, Vanie, Pacific, Jam, Tart, Cookai, Lou, Kirby, and Rayn. And sorry to Frances, Mafe, Sheena, and Celine. And... well, an "I miss you" to my high school friends too. :D

Ever since the semestral break has started, I haven't done anything worth while. Hours pass by without me noticing it. >_< I've been sitting my ass here in front of the computer all day, watching dramas. And now, since I have nothing left to watch, (I actually am currently downloading Yamada Taro Monogatari, but the internet is being sooooooo slow on me), I realized that there's nothing for me to do here at home.

There are actually lots of things I could do right now, but none of them appeals to me. Tss.

Anyway, for the most part of this day, I helped my father in setting up the much-awaited PS3 (60-gig Japan version). Good thing Tito Mon already switched the language to English before giving it to us, or else I would have become so frustrated in trying to decipher kanji. It wasn't that hard to set-up, although the cables and stuff looked intimidating. We are currently using the H-something setting, which would give the highest video quality. As for the audio, the PS3's connected to all the amplifiers connected to the computer.

It's actually quite nice... the Playstation 3. But I'm not that amazed. The good thing about it is that, it sort of acts like a computer, well, it can be considered a computer already. It has a wireless internet connection, media center, and the games are installed into the HDD unlike the past PSs. Another thing nice about it is the resolution of the video--it's crystal clear, even with a huge LCD TV... Really high-def!

Bad side: The games are so expensive! Each game would cost P4000 each (because of the Blu-ray), and it's quite unlikely for hackers to create fake ones any time soon. Oops... I didn't just say that, did I? My mother said the shop owner in Akihabara, where they bought the PS3, decided to give away one CD for free because of the CDs' sheer expensive-nessss. The only things is, the game is in Japanese--Gran Turismo HD Concept (グランドツリズモHDコンセープト). And everytime my siblings would play, they'd ask me to translate (not that I can). I can only manage to read the Katakana and Hiragana though.

Ah, pardon the rant. I'm actually quite sleepy already. I haven't slept well last night because of my excitement over the Toshiba Gigabeat (30-gig Japan version) that I asked for. I immediately set it up once we got home. I couldn't set the TV though, since it only works in Japan. Different signals, I guess. XP

I'm quite surprised by the price of both. MY mother bough the PS3 for around 54000円 and mine for 28000円. If they found the 20gig version of the PS3, it would've only cost around 40000円. Translated into pesos, the PS3 is P21000, mine is P11000, and the 20gig PS3 would be P14000. Cheap, ne? (Although the PS3 demands a lot of extra things since Japan version ones aren't really quite compatible with the Philippine standard when it comes to voltages and stuff.)

Oh, the PS3's not mine, by the way. It's my siblings'. Hahaha.

Sashiburiiiii~. It's been a while.

For the past two days, I couldn't open my computer because of system failure... My system died on me. Tss. I tried doing everything, but ended up resorting to my very last option (one which I've been wanting to do for a long time already), reformat the drive and reinstall Windows. :D I'm glad it was successful. I'm not quite done with the installing, though... And, I lost 256 worth of RAM in the process. T_T Now my computer's acting all slow on me. TT_TT Oh well.

Just now, I got a hold of mama through Y!m... Such a confusing conversation. Everyone was battling over the microphone. My Toshiba Gigabeat is still in question. Wuuuuuuuuh. And they didn't even find the Hana Kimi, making of book. Kuso. It all depends whether or not the Japan version of PS3 can work here, and I am capable enough of translating the menus and what have you for my Japanese-illiterate relatives.

Anyways...
The first semester just ended. It's finally the semestral break and I am not quite happy with it, 1.) because I am not satisfied with my performance during the past semester, 2.) I've got nothing to do, now that I am stuck at home. ~_~ I don't really want to talk about school anymore. I've had enough stress.

On the other hand, I finished watching Proposal Daisakusen and Hana Yori Dango 2 today. Proposal Daisakusen was okay. I loved the fact that Yamapi is in it, and that I could, for a long 11 episodes, stare at his lovely eyes, but I really wasn't happy with his character. There are times when I would curse Iwase Ken for being so stupid in missing out on so many chances at confessing his love. It came to a point when I was even beginning to be happy for Rei and Tada-sensei. Haha. But in the end, Ken-zou wins. ^_^

Hana Yori Dango, on the other hand, was really really great! I was nose-bleeding from first episode to the last. And all of that is because of Hanazawa Rui (and Oribe Junpei). I really love Oguri Shun as Hanazawa Rui... It's completely different from his Sano Izumi role. Every time he'd appear on screen I'd start drooling and nose-bleeding. Hahaha! He was actually the only person I was watching there. Doumyoji Tsukasa was fine here, too, it's just that I find Rui's smile more attractive than his stupidity. Of course, MatsuJun will always have a special place in my heart. *toink*

I'm actually planning on watching it again. I mean, it's Oguri Shun, Matsumoto Jun and Ikuta Toma all in one drama. *faints*

It's so weird of me, ne? When I was thinking of the name I was going to register this computer with, I was choosing between Shun, Ikuta and Matsumoto's surnames. Hahaha. I ended up with Matsumoto. An now this computer is officially registered to Matsumoto Michiko. (Well, it's close to Michelle, isn't it?) Yah. I've gone officially crazy. (Oh, and I installed some programs in Japanese, too... Like iTunes.) Looools.

There is one thing I would want to have right now. I want sleep!

I haven't slept yet. >_< As in, I HAVE NOT slept yet.

I swear, the moment this hell week is over, I'd be incredibly happy!

I haven't been having good days lately. In fact, for the past three days, I've been really down. Well, it's mostly because of what was written in the past entry.

Today, however, is different. I am not only down, but I am also extremely pissed. Biruin mo, sisihin ako ng fx driver for being the reason why no one wants to ride his fx. What the **** is that? He even asked me, "miss, kung may problema ka lumipat ka na lang ng fx kasi nagagambala biyahe ko." Hah, problemado ba ang isang tao kapag inaantok siya? Bwisit talaga. Sorry naman ha, I'm not the kind of person who can put out a smiley face even when I'm very tired and sleepy. Sorry na. He should be thankful though, since he is an old man and I am an extremely polite person. Besides, I was too tired to even talk.

I mean, hello! I really wanted to talk back but then again 'wag na lang... Baka lumalala lang.

To manong driver:
 
Manong, mawalang galang lang ho, pero kung 'di niyo nalilimutan, ako ho ang unang sumakay sa fx niyo. Naawa ho ako kasi umabot kayo ng espana na wala man lang ni isang taong sakay. Ang daming papuntang fairview sa tabi ko pero walang gustong sumakay sa fx niyo. Pasalamat ho kayo at nagmamadali ako kaya ako sumakay sa fx niyo... Kung hindi ako sumakay, baka hanggang ngayon wala pa rin kayong pasahero. Walang personalan lang ho. Kung mabigat ang problema niyo, huwag po kayong manisi ng inosenteng tao. Ako po, nananahimik na lang po dito. Buti sana kung nagwawala ako sa kotse niyo, may karapatan pa kayong magalit pero hindi eh. Ako po, pagod-na-pagod, masakit ang ulo at nahihilo na, kaya gusto ko nang makauwi. Professionalism lang ho. I pay you, you give me my service. Yun lang.

Nagagambala. Hah. Paano ko nagagambala ang biyahe niya? I'm sitting quitely, trying to sleep through the ride since I'm too tired. Tapos, he is going to blame me for ruining his trip. What the hell is wrong with him? He is the one with the problem, not me.

Nakakaasar talaga. Sgsngsignsogsngnsihnshisjhweygownseohns9ihnshnsohs~!

Aside from that, we had an "on the spot" practical exam for PE. Supposedly, our finals were scheduled for next Monday, but our professor moved it to today without informing us formally. Some of us haven't even practiced yet! Imagine, we were given 10 minutes to practice and then after that, we're supposed to present the dance to her--a combination of line dance, swing and cha-cha. We were all so shocked... But a grade of 2 isn't too bad for a one-day practice. Good thing we met up last Saturday.

Aww... I won't be seeing Clara and Sam's silliness anymore, especially when they tease each other while talking in Korean. (They are Koreans, by the way.) Plus, I won't be seeing my other PE-mates too. Oh well. Haha. Thank goodness, PE is finally over.

Yatta. I'm glad I've finally poured that out.

I hate it when people tease me about something knowing that I'd get hurt in the process. 'Yung tipong, "ay, tignan mo siya meron, ikaw, wala!" It isn't funny at all... Why? Because they knew I wanted that so badly. They knew and yet they'd go around teasing me about how I can't have it. I really wanted to say something, but I restrained myself. I might end up getting all dramatic.

Another thing. I hate it when they don't trust me when I say I'm going to school on a weekend. Again, teasing I've been off somewhere instead of "researching". Kuso. I was tired the entire morning trying to summarize 14 EFFING BOOKS, then I'd go home and get teased that I was off in some kind of bar early in the morning. What kind of crap is that? I've never even stepped in a bar my entire life. I know it's a joke but that kind of joke is something I can't bear under such circumstances. Had they told that to me on another day, I wouldn't have even cared. I'm an aloof person like that, but... this one I can't take.

I just hate so much it.

Today's Friday, and yet I never felt like it was. Perhaps it's because I'd be in school tomorrow and the day after. (No weekend for me this week, unfortunately.)

The other day, we had our MarkStrat presentations at the CME Auditorium. It was such a tiring event. I mean, listening to long presentations is not something I'd do everyday, not to mention the fact that they were presented in such a boring manner. (No offense meant. Just my opinion.) I will be biased, and say that ours was probably the best presentation, or else we wouldn't have received the award for best presentation, now would we? Sadly, we didn't win the competition. I was a bit hurt by it because I kind of expected to win, but I'm all over it now. I do admit that their presentation was also good, so I'm glad it went to them. (If one of the first two presenters won... Hmm, now that is something I cannot accept. Haha.) 

For the past two days, I've been caught up in my thoughts so much. I even tripped and fell on the pavement yesterday. Usually, I'd be able to react immediately, but yesterday was different. The moment I tripped, I got shocked and lost control... It's as if I went blank and allowed myself to fall onto the pavement. Demo, yokatta ne. Omae mimasen deshita. But then again, since that circumstance last summer, I have always been in a constant reflection. I'd always think about things happening around me, and would try to learn something from them.

Just a while ago, when I was watching "Bambino", the head chef of Baccanale was telling Bambino about dreams and working. "Guys who don't focus on the work in front of them don't have the right to talk about their dreams." It hit me like a dagger. I'm a dreamer in nature, and it isn't out of the ordinary for me to get caught up in my dreams, so much so I forget to return to reality. I like living in my dreams. I'll take note of that, though. Focus is what I need right now. (And focus was not what I had earlier when I cooked pasta for my dinner, instead of saving time&money by eating the food available, eventually getting to study much earlier--which I never did.)

Even as I type, I'm still contemplating about other things... anything that comes to mind, especially that thing that's been bothering me for the past two days. Kuuusooo~! I need to stop thinking about it. "いいじゃない。悪くない。愛じゃない。"

A Day in Ateneo...

I can't explain it. It was a different experience. Hahaha.

Frances and I went to Ateneo yesterday because she was going to meet a friend there. I went with her as well because I was going to watch Pauline's play in the evening. Basically, we stayed there for an entire day--from 2-6... 2-9:30, in my case. We met up with Pauline and Serica when we first arrived there, but since they had a discussion going on, Frances and I decided to go around the campus. Later on, Frances' friend, Camille, went with us since she's already done with the paper she was doing. It was so fun chatting with her! ^__^ We spent the remaining 2 hours just chatting on the benches near the mall thingy, where management students manage their own stalls. (I forgot what it's called.) Before that, we also stayed for a while in the second-floor area of the caf where I met her other friend, who was so into DBSK... forgot her name too. >_< She reminded me a lot of Me-Ann, though. Haha. ^___^

On our way out of the caf, I saw Winna... I missed Palm Three all of a sudden. ~_~

After Frances went home, I met with Khar at McDo. We went to Rizal Mini Theater to watch Pauline's play, "Sister Act: Back in the Habit". Too bad Anna and Zoe weren't there. For a minor role, Pauline's performance was great. (Lalaki na naman ang ulo niyan.) Serica's too... I loved the songs they used in the show. So nice... Plus a lot of them really sing well.

Khar and I waited for Pauline outside, and we all decided to go to McDo afterwards (which was my third time in McDo Katipunan in one day). I wasn't able to stay that long though, since my parents, surprisingly, were already there.

Anyway, it was such a fun and long day yesterday... For a moment, I forgot I was a Thomasian. (Oh-ohhh. Guys, don't throw tomatoes at me.) I'd love to visit there again. Hahahaha~.

I've gone blog-crazy today, seeing that I have three entries for today alone.

Nothing much happened today, really. As I said earlier, Computer class didn't go too well. Aside from that, we watched "John Q" for Philosophy, discussed pakikinig for Filipino, and did a hellish Gandhi-related seat work/quiz for History.

The only thing I liked during the entire day was the 'watching' part. Haha. I was incredibly... Well, not really, but I was touched by the story of "John Q". I actually thought John would die since he was that close into killing himself for the sake of his son's life. I guessed wrong, though, because they all lived. Haha. Somehow, I seem to be sad about that. *slaps self*

Enough of school. Right now, I am supposed to be rewriting my English paper, but I decided to take a break and update myself with science news. I'm very much amused by the new scientific discoveries happening lately.

1. Rip Van Winkle Disease: It's an extremely rare disease that begins to occur during the adolescent stage and disappears in one's 30's. Basically, this disease causes a person to sleep excessively. And when I say excessively, I mean EXCESSIVELY. At most, one slept for almost a year. Haha. (Read more about it?)
2. Real Deal About Gayness: Well, it has been somehow proven that gayness is, indeed, hereditary. According to geneticist, Dean Hamer's research, gay people have a similar patch of DNA, which is the Xq28... Whatever that is. Moreover, they're refuting the "environmental background theory" as a cause of gayness. (Click here to find out why)
3. Bone Marrow Babies: Some stem cell researchers found a way to create a baby without even needing a father! Yes, from now on, men are officially obsolete. Haha, kidding! But really, through one's bone marrow and stem cells, a scientist could create a sperm cell and implant it on an egg cell to create a baby. So, it's possible to create a baby out of two mothers and no father, or a mother alone. Sugoi, ne? (more)
4. Pluto gets Demoted. Again: Well, I guess Pluto's importance keeps on diminishing more and more as bigger planets are found within the Solar System. Eris, formerly known as Xena, was found to be 27 percent more massive than Pluto. I guess Pluto was meant to be somewhat of a moon to begin with. Haha. (read here...)
5. Neptune Rising: This one's actually an old article, dating back to seven years ago. A possibility that it's literally raining diamonds in Neptune? (This is the reason why Neptune's my favorite planet... Aside from the fact that it's blue.)

In other news, tonight is Hana Kimi's last episode! TT_TT Aww, I'm really going to miss the entire gang of Osaka Gakuen ikemen + Tokyo Gakuen's Kagurazaka (Shirota Yuu is such an ikemen!). Haha. Especially Ikuta Toma's Nakatsu!

"Ike ike go go! Ore go go!"

"Sonna no kanke ne!" (Correct me if I'm wrong.)

I'm so tempted to view spoilers later. Must resist temptation. I wanna watch the entire episode without knowing what's going to happen next, although I've been spoiled with a glimpse of the ending already. I'm not sure how reliable the rumor was but they said, there was a hug and a kiss between Sano and Mizuki in Narita Airport. *squeeeeeeee~* I can't wait!

Ja... I think I better rewrite that English essay now. Haha.

Right now, I'm feeling very sleepy!

Anyway, the past two days, I've been feeling groggy and irritated with people, especially that one uberpretentious person. (Ruins my day when she's the first one I see in the morning.)


One thing that brightened up my day was the pseudo-photo shoot we had at the Tan Yan Kee building earlier using Angie's SLR. I love all the pictures we took, especially the one where they were pretending to bully me. I looked so cutely pathetic there! Hahaha. It was also a bonding moment, once again. Sa susunod ulit!


At that time, we also helped Cookai in taking her pictures for the PBB, since she's going to join the auditions to be held tomorrow. Cookai, I wish you luck! Sana makapasok ka sa bahay ni Kuya! Hahaha.

After that, my day went dull once more. I met up with Charmaine and Clara, my PE-mates, to supposedly practice for Monday's test on Cha-cha. However, how the hell would we practice if there were no guys around? All our partners were missing, so we decided to call it a day and head home instead. And to think, I wasted 4 and a half precious hours just to wait for them. Rawr.

On a lighter note, I watched a Japanese production of "Titus Andronicus", a Shakespearean play, which had Oguri Shun in it. I couldn't understand 97% of what they were saying but gosh, I've gained a higher level of respect for Oguri Shun's acting skills. Can he act, or what? Hana Kimi may not have given him the chance to show much of his skill but this one really did. Not to mention the fact that it's a 2/3 hour play too, where he had so many monologues! *hands down to Shun-kun*

Speaking of monologues, it reminded me of our activity in Filipino. On Thursday, were going to present in class a 2-minute speech... a 2-minute eulogy in Filipino to be exact. Right now, I am utterly clueless as to what I am going to do. We're supposed to "kill"someone in class and present a eulogy for them in front of the class. I don't know who I'm going to "kill" yet. I'd have to think it over the weekend. >_<

今はへやの中に私がいます。日本語をべんきょうします。カミルちゃんはyoutubeの中にビデオを見てがほしかったです。でも、ビデオを見たくない。とても怖いです!

水島ヒロのえいごが本当にいいね?　ハハ。。。日本へ行ってもいいですか?これはちがうですか?　「花より団子」の漫画をよみたいだ!今の気持ちがつまらない。

Yaaaah. むずかしかった!　

I don't think I made sense in whatever I was trying to say, but whatever. It's a nice way to practice my Japanese. :D

I'm moving here. Yayness.

Recently, I've been checking my livejournal more than my bravejournal. I've then decided to use this more often than the other one for so many reasons I'm too lazy to elaborate on.

Anyway, I am so loving the layout. ^_______^ And of course, the banner I made too. Wee~! Love Hana Kimi & Peach. :D

Off for now. Might update later when I'm much much more awake. XP

Where is your favourite place to be on a sunny Sunday afternoon?

This was taken from Vox. I figured, since I don't really write anything when I make entries, I might as well answer these things until I find my way back into writing. I haven't been writing much at school and it's really making me stupid.

Today is not a Sunday. It's actually a gloomy and humid Monday holiday--one of the days when you'll immediately feel sleepy upon seeing the outdoor environment. It's one of those days. But let's just pretend that today is a Sunday, and that it is not a gloomy Monday.

Sundays are the days when it's nice to stay for a few more minutes in bed after briefly waking up and brushing your eyes. Rolling and turning within the sheets to feel a tad bit more comfortable, and to feel the temporary warmth that it's giving you to counter the coldness of the air conditioning. That's a Sunday morning.

Sundays are the days when you'd feel too lazy to wake up immediately, sluggishly standing up from the bed, and slowly walking to the bathroom to wash up. After which, heading for the dining table to eat your breakfast. And so the day continuous with you doing your Sunday routine--grocery shopping, movie watching, going on dates, perhaps?

But I haven't answered the question yet, have I?

I, on the other hand, do not have a Sunday routine. Well, perhaps I do, but being the person that I am, spontaneity  plays a big role in my life. On some Sundays, you could find me in my room, happily using the computer and surfing the net. Other Sundays, I'd be in the mall, at school taking a thirty-minute test, or some place else away from home. And still, other Sundays, you could find me just in my house. doing random stuff (i.e. studying Japanese, cooking, watching, or just roaming around the tiny house), in an attempt to keep myself away from the computer. I am not a routine-based person. Routines are as dull as the color gray, and it does not appeal to me at all.

Now whenever I am not in my house, the other place you'd find me in is in the mall. I always say that I hate being in malls since I don't have money to buy anything, and my parents do not allow me to buy anything, either. It's either I have money to buy, or I borrow money to buy something, which of course, I pay afterwards. But, it is better than being stuck at home and staring at the computer screen all day long. So, I am in fact just lying, and I actually love malls. That's where I find which items I am planning to buy next. (I love splurging. I know it's bad, I know.)

But this Sunday (or Monday), I am happy being in my room, repeatedly watching "Hanazakari no Kimitachi e" episode 8, time and again having fits of giggly girlish laughter, and secretly wishing I was Horikita Maki with all the ikemen (good-looking guys), especially Oguri Shun, Shirota Yuu and Ikuta Toma in that drama. I am loving my pseudo-Sunday in my room right now. :3

*bounce, bounce, bounce*

so, it's been ages since the last update. i've grown to love my bravejournal once more and decided to return there...

err...
today is a weird day. woke up at 6pm from an afternoon nap with panic written all over my face, thinking that i have overslept and missed my thursday class entirely. i was actually wondering why all the clocks registered 6:32pm, and why it was dark outside. i thought the clocks were playing tricks on me and that it was actually 4am, thursday morning.

it wasn't after a few minutes until i realized that it was still the same day--wednesday--and that i was only woken up because it's dinner time. haha.

for a few minutes, i actually though i slept more than 24 hours and missed one class day. somebody slap me please.

xxxxx

i'm a few episodes away from finishing kurosagi. the ending kinda intrigues me since there are still questions in my head that are yet to be answered. aside from that, i've started watching coffee prince... so far, so good.

*yawns*

i want to go back to sleep.

I have a plan! I have a plan! I have a plan!








And, no one's gonna stop me this time.

Nobody's gonna rain on my parade!

Matagal na rin akong di nakaka-post dito ah. Magtatagalog muna ako ngayon. Mwahahaha~.

Ang saya kagabi. Wala lang... masaya makausap ulit ang mga dating kaibigan na madalang ko na lang makita. :D
 
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Kaninang umaga, tinuruan ako nina mama't papa na mag-start ng kotse. WOOT. Finally, marunong na ako! Sa susunod nyan, kung saan-saang lupalop ng Pilipinas na ako makakarating. XP Grabe, sana makapag-simula na ako ng formal driving lessons ko para naman hindi masayang ang license ko 'diba? Nyay, ilang buwan na ring nabubulok ang license ko sa wallet... walang kapaki-pakinabang kasi hindi naman ako marunong mag-drive. Hehehe. Summer naman ngayon eh. Driving lessons, here I come! Nyahahaha.

About sa nihongo, medyo nag-gets ko na yung mga verbs. Nakakalito lang talaga yung mga variations, lalo na yung "V-te form". Aish. Nakakalito kapag in-apply siya sa "I-Verbs". But at least 'diba, may progress kahit papaano. Kaya naman inggit-na-inggit pa rin ako sa mga pinsan ko kahit hindi pa sila nakakaalis papuntang Japan. Mas madali silang matututo dun eh. Plus, makakatira pa sila sa Japan... Gusto ko rin sumama!! T_T

Anyway, feel ko na ang summer. Pupunta kaming Subic sa Monday! Makakapagbabad na naman ako sa araw't dagat. Excited na meee~. Hahaha. Conyo ba itech? Nyaaaaaaaaaay.

Wala lang, bigla kong naalala yung kanta ng PPG. "Love love love love love. Love love... makes the world go 'round." O_O

Hay, babalik na nga lang ako sa pag-aral ng nihongo. Ganyan ako ka-desperadong matutunan ng wikang 'yan. Haha.

I just want to squee and squee and squee some more till my lungs can't take it anymore.

Currently addicted to Goong (Princess Hours) and I cannot explain how extremely gaga I am over it. Hah. Baka it has some kind of gayuma or something? :P It's driving me insane, really. Hahaha.

Finished watching it last Sunday morning. My eyes were practically reddish and swollen from all the (unnecessary) tears I've shed for the last few episodes. And now, I'm watching the tagalized version of it just for kicks. :D Yes, I know... I'm insane but I love it THAT much. Hahaha. Never been this crazy over a Kdrama (Lovers in Paris does not even compare to this).

I don't exactly know what the point of this entry is. Anyway, I just needed to write because I really am going to explode from being SO EXTREMELY KILIG over this drama. HAHAHA. Gosh, this IS an obsession.

Earlier, Mafe and I even talked about this all day long, so much so that we forgot about the other people around us. In short, we were living in our own little world.

People, join the bandwagon as well. It's so much fun that way. Hahahahaha. Which reminds me of what Pauline said before, "the more the many-er!" :P

So, I guess my Marginal Utility for this commodity is still high up, and my Total Utility is still low since I'm still crazy over it. Nyahaha. I don't know if theories of Economics would correctly apply in this situation since my Marginal Utility doesn't seem to drop the more I watch this commodity. According to Law of Diminishing Marginal Utility, the more a person consumes a commodity, the Marginal Utiliry a person derives from the additional unit of this commodity decreases. Hah, I really am going insane. XP

"Shin Chaegyung, saranghe."

Gaaaah. This is so stressing. I haven't slept yet... The most I slept last night was 2 hours. O_O *yawns*

I studied CA all-night and I put a lot of effort into understanding the concepts but to no avail. I was practically boggling my brain for the right answers. Haaaay. And then I'd find out that I failed my CA prelim. WUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUH!



Must make-up to pull my grade up. I MUST GET A 1.75, AT THE VERY LEAST, FOR EVERY SUBJECT. Or else, I'll be a big fat FAILURE. T_T


Anyway, must study now. I'm expecting another all-night bonding session with my trusty coffee and hand-outs. XP

Just had my ACET earlier. Gah. I don't really know what to feel right now... I mean, I want to see my name once they post the results on February, but I don't want to expect anything because it might just hurt me.



After the test, Dartz and I met Ron outside. Pauline called me up to meet up with her near the highschool. Dartz and Ron left while Pauline and I had a recap of the test. Haha. Just a thought: How come some people remember the questions from last time? They said that the ACET we took is exactly like the last time. O_O We left after that, and then I went home. Hahaha.

What's weird about this year's ACET was the fact that I didn't feel much pressure while answering the entire test. It was... surreal. Never did it occur to me that what I was taking up was the ACET exam even if I knew well enough that I was taking the ACET. Gah. It's so hard to explain. Parang hindi ko naramdaman yung test. My only goal was to answer the test and finish before time ends. I felt numb the entire time since I really didn't feel any pressure while taking the test. I mean, it's the ACET and I wasn't even worried. Y'knoooow. Gaaaaaah. Weird.

I guess, I won't be able to make it into Ateneo again most especially because they only accept a small percentage of people when it comes to transferees. Hindi na ako umaasa. I'll just fix the papers regarding my shifting of courses... And hopefully, it isn't too late to try to shift.